The Final Entry.
I ran out of friends that I trust. Maybe I'll try something different on Myspace, though next year I'll probably be in college, and maybe I wont even be online again. Maybe I'll just get more lame friends, a boring job eventually, and it'll all be over before I notice.
Let's make a final recap. X years ago, EM and Gabe departed for good. They turned into arses, so there was no use to keep in touch. Later it was toreh. She got bored of me, like so many people before her.
Before all that, I met Hanayo while I was with Miranda. It was so random but, when I had everything settled, she didnt want to be with me anymore. "Lets take a break" she said, she gave me hopes. Later she supposedly came back with me, but she wouldnt even talk. I'd ask her what was wrong, but she wouldnt tell me. I got tired of it, and ended everything right there. "Let's be friends" she said now. Yeah, after making me wait like an idiot; my personality wouldnt allow me. I just said "fine" but it was only a matter of a few days before I deleted all traces she was ever in my life.
After that, it was just empty flirting. I never found someone worth the while. Random people would get bored of me. That's just the way it was. At least I still had some online friends, but for how long?
Later neo got a girlfriend. He stopped coming online. Annie got grounded and just posted entries about being happy hanging with some guy. Then gloria got a boyfriend too. I was the weird one out. And how could I act the same way around gloria now? I was just jealous because of everything hitting me at the same time.
I was lonely on my birthday. The only thing I got, were the dolls that mir sent me and arrived a week later. The best birthday gift I had gotten in years. Altogether I tried to get detached. Maybe eventually not caring about the computer as much.
Since Annie had too much free time, she tried to get me back to talk to everyone. Neo just stopped coming at all, and if he actually logged on, he'd just get in a lame fight with Annie. Then I also got in a fight with gloria because she was being lame.
On gaia I got some momentary friends, but everything eventually died out. Also Annie stopped talking. All she'd say is "talk to me." And when I'd say random stuff to joke around, she'd just reply with "..."
She started playing RO again, and I just decided to let her play. I read it in a magazine once, and its true. The horoscope said "You can be the most passionate, but when people dont show interest in you, you get distant." Something like that, it said.
I've gotten tired of stuff online. I wanne feel things now. I wanna hug someone.
Now the only one I have to talk with is miranda. She's obsessed with me as usual, but she's entertaining. I'm always bored when she's not online.
Who would've thunk it'd end up like this. Just two or three years ago, we all would say "think we'll still talk to each other years from now" and we'd say "DUHHH." Sadness. Good things are always so feeble.
"Those who mind don't matter and those that matter don't mind."